20 wks and 2 days

It's a BOY!

So excited......
as you'll notice widget is out by nearly 2 weeks, just ignore until I can fix it LOL

11 weeks and 2 days

Ok so I had the first ultrasound last week. It was pretty cool. They put me back in dates so now instead of being due on the 4th of october (I thought the 10th) I'm due on the 15th. No biggie, plus its DH's birthday so kinda spesh. Bubbies come when they want to anyway, not by your "date" its only a measurement.

Having trouble being happy at the moment. Not sure wether its hormonal or depression setting in. Or maybe a combination of both? Anyway, keeping an eye on myself, but have been really really (and I mean really) down. Been shopping a LOT. Spending too much money. I always buy stuff for the kids and DH, usually nothing on me and that way I can justify it as a necessary expense. Gawd that sounds pa-the-tic!

Building a bridge.....
trying to focus on happy things and thinking of buying an intelligender. (theyre now shipping to Australia YAY) Just so I have something happy to focus on with this pregnancy and when I discover the gender (in conjunction with the 20 week ultrasound) I can really plan and choose names and clothes to really make myself more excited. see here intelligender

anyway, DD is crying so better choof off... love to all

8 weeks 2 days

Its hard. Its wierd. It still doesnt feel real. I went to the Drs to try and work out when I'm actually due. He just said that I'm due sometime in early October and he'd send me for an u/s dating and NT in 2 and a half weeks. I rang to book the appointment with the u/s place and they want me to wait 4 weeks. Damn! But my conundrum is that if I wait I may miss the NT window, because I'm not too sure on dates. I really think I concieved on the 15th of January, which makes me due around the 8th. But I'm going off LMP dates because thats all I have.

How am I gonna wait until the 21st of March for my scan? Thats AGES. It still doesnt seem real until I see blobby on the screen. I really dont feel much different.

I HATE WAITING!

I'm so impatient its embarrassing. I dont know how I've done this 3 times before LOL.

7 weeks

7 weeks today.

Very sad because my Dr had to move my appointment to Monday instead of today. I know I was going to wait another week for a scan anyway but I really wanted to book it today IYKWIM. One of the girls I know who's having twins got her gender scan today. She's having twins and she got a Pinky and a Stinky (girl and boy). Still undecided wether to find out the gender of this bubs. I'll prolly be so impatient I'll want to know, but at the same time theres something to be said about a mystery. I'll be waiting until 20 weeks for the scan anyway so thats only13 weeks to go! How exciting!

6 weeks 6 days

Wow didnt that go fast! My Dr's appointment is tomorrow at 2pm. Hopefully I can get another BT or a scan. I think a scan at this stage. Then I'll wait until next wednesday and go and I will be 7w +6d. Hopefully that will be reflected in the scan. As I've said before, not sure how I will be if they put the dates back too much! I'd be devistated, that count-down is my lifeline to sanity! Only 232 days left!

Ok I'm going against my rule and I'm blogging about names.....

Boys names are no contest..... my choice is...
Jonah Thomas
and DH likes Jacob, but I'm not too keen. I've known Jacobs and theres so many around too.

Girls names are a little different... I have a few, and not all J names which is slightly dissapointing, here are the winning ones so far
Jemima Emily
Eleanor Emily
Lilah Emily
Daisy Emily

What do you think??

The reality of four

What does that sentence really mean?
I caught myself wondering what bedtime will be like with 4 children. Right now its quite organised with a routine... dinner, desert, milk, toilet then bed. No wavering unless a second bath is needed. I dont really remember it being different going from 2 to 3, although I guess the first couple of months takes some getting used to. I'm so excited to be having another baby. I wonder how he/she will fit into our family. I know the baby will bring more work, but also more love and giggles. I think its definately worth it, having another one, I mean, its so lovely watching them play and grow and learn. Even better when you see them develop friendships and love for each other. By this time next year that 4 children scenario will be a reality.

Wow

6 weeks 3 days

Time keeps on ticking, only 235 days to go. I've named the bubs "Baby J" for now which fits seeing she/he is going to have a name beginning with J. I've already picked the names but I'm not going to share them because something at least needs to be kept secret!
DH wants another J name to keep with the unplanned theme we're got going with the other children. R and J and R. Thus the next one will be J too.
I did another HPT yesterday and it came up sooooo dark I'm so positive that this baby will stay with us.
This week the babys heart started beating. I cant wait until the first scan!