6 weeks 1 day

OMG the reality of having 4 children has finally hit me. How are people going to view our family? How are we going to afford a 7 seater car? Can I cope?

I've been so emotional lately and I really hope that its good, pregnancy emotion and not the negative emotion I had when having J. I know I want to be pregnant, I know I love this baby already and I know if I wasnt pregnant, I'd want to be. So where does this fear come from? Why am I scared? Labour? nope... pregnancy? nope. Coping.... yes. Thats the word that springs to mind... but coping with what? I think I'm scared about coping with work and TAFE and kids and pregnancy. I dont like to give stuff up or quit stuff until its finished. I think this is where my fear really lies. I know I should quit TAFE, I feel it, even now. But my pride wont let me. Hmmmm. I just feel so tired and dread the thought of going back on Tuesday.