8 weeks 2 days

Its hard. Its wierd. It still doesnt feel real. I went to the Drs to try and work out when I'm actually due. He just said that I'm due sometime in early October and he'd send me for an u/s dating and NT in 2 and a half weeks. I rang to book the appointment with the u/s place and they want me to wait 4 weeks. Damn! But my conundrum is that if I wait I may miss the NT window, because I'm not too sure on dates. I really think I concieved on the 15th of January, which makes me due around the 8th. But I'm going off LMP dates because thats all I have.

How am I gonna wait until the 21st of March for my scan? Thats AGES. It still doesnt seem real until I see blobby on the screen. I really dont feel much different.

I HATE WAITING!

I'm so impatient its embarrassing. I dont know how I've done this 3 times before LOL.

7 weeks

7 weeks today.

Very sad because my Dr had to move my appointment to Monday instead of today. I know I was going to wait another week for a scan anyway but I really wanted to book it today IYKWIM. One of the girls I know who's having twins got her gender scan today. She's having twins and she got a Pinky and a Stinky (girl and boy). Still undecided wether to find out the gender of this bubs. I'll prolly be so impatient I'll want to know, but at the same time theres something to be said about a mystery. I'll be waiting until 20 weeks for the scan anyway so thats only13 weeks to go! How exciting!

6 weeks 6 days

Wow didnt that go fast! My Dr's appointment is tomorrow at 2pm. Hopefully I can get another BT or a scan. I think a scan at this stage. Then I'll wait until next wednesday and go and I will be 7w +6d. Hopefully that will be reflected in the scan. As I've said before, not sure how I will be if they put the dates back too much! I'd be devistated, that count-down is my lifeline to sanity! Only 232 days left!

Ok I'm going against my rule and I'm blogging about names.....

Boys names are no contest..... my choice is...
Jonah Thomas
and DH likes Jacob, but I'm not too keen. I've known Jacobs and theres so many around too.

Girls names are a little different... I have a few, and not all J names which is slightly dissapointing, here are the winning ones so far
Jemima Emily
Eleanor Emily
Lilah Emily
Daisy Emily

What do you think??

The reality of four

What does that sentence really mean?
I caught myself wondering what bedtime will be like with 4 children. Right now its quite organised with a routine... dinner, desert, milk, toilet then bed. No wavering unless a second bath is needed. I dont really remember it being different going from 2 to 3, although I guess the first couple of months takes some getting used to. I'm so excited to be having another baby. I wonder how he/she will fit into our family. I know the baby will bring more work, but also more love and giggles. I think its definately worth it, having another one, I mean, its so lovely watching them play and grow and learn. Even better when you see them develop friendships and love for each other. By this time next year that 4 children scenario will be a reality.

Wow

6 weeks 3 days

Time keeps on ticking, only 235 days to go. I've named the bubs "Baby J" for now which fits seeing she/he is going to have a name beginning with J. I've already picked the names but I'm not going to share them because something at least needs to be kept secret!
DH wants another J name to keep with the unplanned theme we're got going with the other children. R and J and R. Thus the next one will be J too.
I did another HPT yesterday and it came up sooooo dark I'm so positive that this baby will stay with us.
This week the babys heart started beating. I cant wait until the first scan!

6 weeks 2 days

Here we are at 6 weeks +2. 236 days to go. Two Hundred and Thirty Six days to go. I'm thinking of doing a count down on paper like I did last time, just for fun. I will once I go for the dating scan and figure out exactly where I am dates wise.
Speaking of dating scans, I would be devistated if the scan puts me back a week. A few days here or there is tolerable, but a week... NO WAY.

6 weeks 1 day

OMG the reality of having 4 children has finally hit me. How are people going to view our family? How are we going to afford a 7 seater car? Can I cope?

I've been so emotional lately and I really hope that its good, pregnancy emotion and not the negative emotion I had when having J. I know I want to be pregnant, I know I love this baby already and I know if I wasnt pregnant, I'd want to be. So where does this fear come from? Why am I scared? Labour? nope... pregnancy? nope. Coping.... yes. Thats the word that springs to mind... but coping with what? I think I'm scared about coping with work and TAFE and kids and pregnancy. I dont like to give stuff up or quit stuff until its finished. I think this is where my fear really lies. I know I should quit TAFE, I feel it, even now. But my pride wont let me. Hmmmm. I just feel so tired and dread the thought of going back on Tuesday.

6 weeks

Here we are at the 6 week mark. I go to see my doctor on the 15th which I'm hoping he will refer me to get a dating ultrasound. I'll be 7 weeks then so I'll wait another week so that there's every chance of seeing a heartbeat.

It sounds wierd but my tummy is so bloated feeling and clothes are already tight. I already find it uncomfortable sleeping on my tummy. Thats one of the reasons I knew I was pregnant when the first bloods came back negative. Second ones were positive and I was like "I knew it!". The main symptom is tiredness. I'm so so so tired. I wake up tired. I cant concentrate because I'm so tired. It sucks. The tiredness is supposed to leave at around weeks 12-14 so only another 6 weeks really. Hope I can cope!

Today I'm going up the coast so I may be able to snooze in the car at least!

Name that poppyseed

Do you give your baby a name in utero? All 3 of my children had names in utero. Things like Jellybean, Pookie-dookie and Cookie. I'm thinking today I'm going to name the bubby. Widget springs to mind because I got this cool widget counter on the sidebar of this blog. But then again Widget was actually a wierd little purple cartoon guy when I was a kid too. Wierd, just wierd. I like poppyseed, its cute but maybe female oriented?

hmmmm. the things we do when UTD!

5 weeks 6 days

I cant believe I'm pregnant. I just dont believe it. I knew I was but actually believing it is another thing entirely. Number 4 is on its way. Something the size of a poppyseed has already wound its way around my heart and impacted my life.

This month (February) is the month we were supposed to start trying. Too late!
DH is soooo happy that we're pregnant, I'm so happy too! I just need to get past these first 12 weeks and I'll relax.